I started this blog over a year ago with the intention of updating it throughout my journey to running a marathon. But, alas, that did not happen. I got to wrapped up in life and kids and all of the things that they need, and very few of the things that I need.
I did train for and run the marathon. It was a disaster. I trained, sorta. Not as much as I should have. I ran a few times a week and almost never made the long distance training days as long as they should have been. I felt ok, and was able to build enough running confidence to actually get out there and attempt the race.
2 days before the race I woke up with a horrible flu that had been running rampant throughout our house. Months of running and eating differently and trying to prep myself mentally all washed away by a virus.
The day before the race I lie in bed crying. I really wanted to acheive my goal and get out there. So I decided to not give up, take some meds and get out there.
I ran.
I ran 22 miles
And then my body just gave up on me.
I didnt have enough fuel to carry me through. I was dehydrated and undernourished and heartbroken in the end.
2 months later and I still feel like a failure. I know I was sick, but I made it 22 miles. 4 short of the finish line. Maybe if I had worked harder leading up to the race I would have been able to finish no matter the circumstances.
Maybe next year?
Definitely next year.
